So I'm just writing something new here, because I added some things and changed up the new layout options.
I figured some new words should be said. There.

Maybe something will come in February.

-Becca

So today I was determined to get work done. I feel asleep last night as I started my studying & knew I had work due today, & so I felt bad about not doing my work.

I'm not being responsible.

So after my golf class I made some chicken noodle soup instead of rushing to get ready for the bus. I spent a good half an hour this morning clearing my throat with no change. I still (at 8:30 at night) feel like I have popcorn stuck in my throat.

After finishing that I caught the bus to campus & headed over to the grad program fair. But what a disappointment, only law schools and east coast colleges. Sans Georgetown!

I left that place to go catch the end of my general science class and I got my exam back (mediocre grade).

After class I fooled around for a bit & then made my way up to the 3rd floor to do some actual work (my TA job). The actual work took no time, but then I got caught up with talking to my professor and I ended up being late to my next class (in the same building). My professor and I talked about our equal inability to accept help. The discussion ended with a compromise & my realization that
1) I might not want my problems to clear up
2) I laugh when people make me feel bad
3) I feel bad when people understand me better than I do myself; when they catch me in my bad state.

So, I got some things done today:
I sent in dependent status papers for flights
I checked out grad school options
I finished the geog tests
I dont have to make geog quizzes this week
I made a study date tonight (with guess who!)
I made a study session for tomorrow night
I paid my bills

yep.

On my honor, I will try, to be good to my studies, and finish my major.

That being said, maybe I'll actually follow it.

I just got a Xmas present in the mail today! Because my fam. lives on the other side of the country its just easier to order things online and have them ship to me directly. So I got a surprise today, a new sewing machine!

I'm SO EXCITED!

It has all the great features one would like to have, 3 diff. button hole designs, reverse stitching, change the stitch width/length, a wide area for extra fabric to fit through, tons of other features! Its amazing, and I can't wait to get some projects started/finished!

In other news, I'm trying not to become too boy crazy, being out on the market and all, but how can I not be crazy when a total cutie shows up in my class??? o.@

I must remain calm. haha, we'll see how much control I have.

I'm also on my way to bicycling master status, after spending the whole day riding to and from every possible landmark in my little college town.

BUT, tonight is going to be devoted to getting shelves up on the walls, bookcases built, and decorations placed in very soothing ways. This year my bedroom will be a place I can relax and chill in.... hopefully bring some guys back to. Haha

Ok so Here I Am, and I can not go to sleep. Today was pretty eventful but I wouldn't say I did much, so my body and mind are not tired. Grrr...

Well anyways, even though I never said it:
I'm back from the Philippines!!!
I'm back from Japan!!!
I have a slacker job being a beverage cart girl on a golf course!!!
... yaaaaaaaayyyyy...

HAHA.

Ok so yea I have returned to the US all safe and sound. I had a blast while visiting Asia and am counting down the days until I can return. My life completely changed when I got back, not much of the change was because of the trip, just unfortunate things happened and I am forced to deal with them. Ah, such is life.

So I had a wonderful time traveling, maybe too good a time, and so by owing more money than I can even charge to my credit cards I decided to grab a job and be responsible. I have now successfully paid off my charges and bills and have nothing more to worry about (for the time being).

As for DA and art, well I have the time, I just haven't taken the time. All is not lost however! I do have some textile things I would like to show and possibly sell and then soon enough I'll be back at school with tons of free time and comfort to procrastinate my life away.

On a tangent, who else is going to Otakon in Baltimore MD this August? My friend and I are going and are wondering what to do and who to see. So let me know!

ALSO I'm going to answer her month old call to answer a meme of 10 facts about me as a sort of renewing of my life.

1) I have been reborn an adventurer after my time in the Philippines and Japan and have hopes of trekking in South America and Australia within a year.

2) I am 95% independent. And thus missing 5% of whether or not I can vote in this state or my parents state or wherever. This independence thing is not normally a bad thing, but it is a confusing thing.

3) I am a straight forward, honest to a fault, stubborn woman. If I dont approve or understand something then you're gonna hear about it and I'm not going to stop until it makes sense or we come to a logical understanding of how stupid you were being.

4) I was in a 5 year, close to 6 year relationship that ended abruptly without warning and without a clear reason, the day I returned from Japan.

5) I am an avid golfer, tennis player, football and baseball fan. I would have loved to be in the sports earlier to be pro, but what happened happened so I am just amateur and able to enjoy my failures. And REALLY enjoy my successes!

6) I am scuba certified, have flown an airplane before, scaled the tallest dormitory on my campus, have jumped into a volcano cone, and gained enlightenment by crawling through Buddha's nostril.

7) I have seen the destruction of nuclear weapons and met the people who deal with that everyday and found those people to be the most compassionate, understanding people of the world around.

8) I never had a good relationship with my brother until a couple weeks ago, when we started talking and acting civilized towards each other... dont be fooled though, we're only talking, we havent actually seen each other in person for a while now, that encounter can bring out the crazy...

9) I am interested in motorcycles and tattoos but do not have the money for That right now. Some day I will. The tattoo may be soon...

10) I am reborn and yet I am 21. All my life I wanted to be older so I could be around intellectual types and people who decide for themselves (are not controlled by their parents), and all my life I waited until I could "start my life"; and yet now that I'm there I realize that I WAS living my life and people will always be controlled somehow by their parents or equivalents and that no matter how old I am or where I am I will still be in the presence of idiots and childish games. I also am fearful of being older and having to meet people like an adult and get a CAREER like an adult. I'm finding out that while I'm finally 21 and about to graduate college, I am no where near knowing what I would like to do with my life, in fact I may be further than when I started college. I am reborn and I am new again, and from this newness comes fear and excitement and hesitance. I'm not sure I want to take that last step, I think I'd rather linger on the verge of being a fullfledged adult.

Ok so there it is. Not much telling you about my chatacter because frankly I don't want to scare you all just yet. I have found out (by recent events) that my no shit attitude towards people and my easy going personality with absolutely no emotional game playing involved is intimidating to most and off-putting by others. So I'll let you have fun with this information instead and if you really know me, or want to, then you can let me know what you think.

Thats all for now!
-Becca

Alright all,
I'm gone for a bit over a month because I'll be studying in the Philippines for May!
I will return sometime mid-june, but will be getting a job, so we'll see how the summer pans out.

Best of luck to you and your endeavors!

-Becart